She speaks!  Basketball Wives star Evelyn Lozada has given her first interview since the domestic dispute with her soon to be ex-husband Chad Johnson.  Evelyn sat down with Nightline to discuss her 41 day "fairytale" marriage, her continuing love for Chad, and that scary night.

Evelyn also claims to be a different person in "real life" than she is on her show.  I don't mean to sound flippant, but I don't buy that for a second.  No one deserves any kind of abuse–not Evelyn..and certainly not the women Evelyn has targeted in seasons' past.


In the interview, Evelyn admits, "It's the hardest thing in the world to walk away from someone that you really love, but you have to walk away because I have to protect myself."

She explains that she will not speak with Chad since the altercation, and she refuses to reconcile.  Evelyn says, "I believe he loves me. I believe he needs to get help. He's a good guy that made a bad choice. He loves football and he's very driven and a great dad. He made a bad choice that destroyed his life, and I hate that I'm connected to that."

According to Evelyn, the head butting occurred after she found a receipt for condoms in the backseat of one of Chad's car.  The receipt was dated three weeks after their wedding day.  When Chad got home, she got into his vehicle to confront him, threatening to leave him.  After that, she explains that everything seemed to happen in slow motion.  She states, "And then the next thing I know, he grabbed me by here [pointing to her head] and he head-butted me. I felt blood coming down my face… and I looked at him and I said, 'You just head-butted me?' And it just — everything just felt if it was in slow motion."

Evelyn cites that she tried to remain as calm as possible due to Chad's anger, adding, "He was gone to me, like, it wasn't him. He got out of the car, really, really quick and ran into the house, and I said to myself, 'I need to get out of here.'"

Evelyn retreated to a neighbor's home where she hid in the yard until the neighbor returned home.  She then went to the hospital where she received six stitches in her forehead.  Chad spent the night in jail for misdemeanor battery, telling police that it was Evelyn who head butted him.  He later tweeted, "I made the bed now I gotta lay n it."

August 14, the day before Evelyn filed for divorce, Chad wrote the following on his official web site: "I am going to let the legal process run its course. I wish Evelyn nothing but the best, I have no negative words to say about her, the only thing I can say is I love her very much. I will continue to be positive and stay training hard for another opportunity in the NFL. I appreciate all my fans and supporters and if I have disappointed you in any way, you have my sincerest apologies. Once again I will continue to stay positive and appreciate all the support during this tough period in my life."

To skeptics who believe the marriage was a publicity stunt, Evelyn says, "I was a very good fiancé and wife to Chad. I did everything I could to make his life better. The person on 'Basketball Wives' is not the person at home. I don't think he would marry me if I was."

Evelyn concludes by revealing, "I still love [Chad]. I feel bad for him because his life is now a mess."

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