Cara Delevingne has spoken openly about her struggles with addiction during a recent podcast. The 33-year-old supermodel also admitted to selling some of her drugs and said, “It was at a pretty young age that I started buying drugs to sell them and to do them,” clarifying, “I wasn’t a great drug dealer.”
Cara Delevingne tells Alex Cooper when she knew her experimentation with drugs became a “problem”
In a June 3 appearance on the podcast Call Her Daddy, Delevingne explained, “I just wanted to fix other people, but had no concept of receiving love.” The host, Alex Cooper, questioned, “So what happened at 15?” The Paper Towns star replied, “I was experimenting a alot with I think with hallucinogens at that time.”
“Growing up in London at that time, there was a lot of drugs, and ketamine was very big at that time. I loved what drugs made me feel. I loved not thinking about my mum.” Her mother, Pandora Delevingne, is a former heroin addict who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and struggled with substance abuse while Delevingne was growing up, reports Page Six.
Delevingne described to Cooper how she realized her drug use had gone too far. “I knew it was bad when I started doing them alone, how much I liked that and how much I knew that people weren’t judging me. I didn’t judge myself for it, and I could disappear.” Adding further, “I knew it was a problem, and that was beyond. But with work, it’s not a problem because I’m working, I’m making money. I would be in a state where I’d definitely be more f****d up than other people, but I am going to work.”
The model also expressed how her body “just couldn’t take it.” “The kind of suicidal ideation came back around when I was at my height of fame, when I should have been the most happy, and I felt the most guilty. I felt like I didn’t deserve any of it.” However, she said music “really saved” her.
The London-born star, in 2017, has discussed how she “hated” depression struggles in the past and felt she could now experience happiness. She said, as reported by BBC, “I want to have a farm, live on a beach… I want kids – I know I’m going to have kids. I can’t wait (to have) that love. Those are the boxes I want to tick… I haven’t set times, they’re just dreams.”
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