The Bachelor’s Jake: ‘My Heart Stopped’ When Ali Left

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This season of The Bachelor has been rather dramatic with last night being the most dramatic episode yet. Contestant Ali Fedotowsky mulled over the difficult decision of having to pick between her dream guy and her dream job.

The 25-year-old advertising accounts manager — who works for Facebook — decided to quit the show leaving Jake Pavelka “heartbroken.” It seemed Ali wanted some sort of guarantee from Jake that she would be the last woman standing, Jake ofcourse could not give her that assurance, hence she decided to leave.

Jake, 32, will now have to pick between the three remaining contestants: Vienna Girardi, Tenley Molzahn and Gia Allemand. The finale airs Monday, March 1 on ABC.

Fans were shocked to see Ali leave so abruptly, but even more shocked was Jake, who shared his thoughts on his PEOPLE blog today. Excerpts from Jake’s blog below –

“After visiting all the families, I felt really good about where I was in this journey. Then I got back to L.A. and the bottom dropped out. My heart crumbled when she told me her boss demanded her back at work. I didn’t actually think she would leave me. We talked about it for three hours that night while the poor women at the rose ceremony just waited. She actually didn’t have to be back at work for four or five more days but we were leaving the country the next morning, so she had to make a decision. I felt like she wanted me to make the choice for her, but I couldn’t. How could I live with myself if I told her, “No! You are not leaving me now!” and then realize a week or two later that she was not “the one.” I couldn’t make the decision for her. When she told me she was leaving, my heart stopped. I wish I could’ve had Mike Tyson punch me square in the jaw, because it would have felt so much better than what I feeling as I watched AliCat drive away that night.

What could I do? I had to regain my composure and focus on the amazing women I had left; three women that I have fallen in love with.”

TELL US – WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON ALI LEAVING? SHOULD SHE HAVE STAYED?

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