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Three months after her widely reported suicide attempt, Teen Mom star Amber Portwood is now opening up for the first time and in a shocker, she reveals she is “still suicidal.”
While talking to E! News, Amber, 21, reveals she was rushed to the hospital last Wednesday after suffering a severe panic attack. “I couldn’t breathe and I passed out,” says Amber. “I stopped breathing.”
Amber, who continues to make tabloid headlines with baby daddy Gary Shirley, then goes on to state she is still having a hard time despite spending weeks at a rehab facility in Malibu.
“Honestly, I feel like I did two months ago. I’m still suicidal,” Amber reveals. “I’m f–king depressed. My family’s not together.”
Amber goes on to add that she is very upset at all the tabloid headlines, most notably the recent Life & Style magazine cover story which stated she is choosing partying over spending time with her 2-year-old daughter Leah. The mag even managed to get quotes from Amber’s own brother Shawn Portwood who stated that Amber “enjoys her freedom too much right now.”
“What hurts me the most is when people believe the lies about me,” Amber tells E! News. “The bullying is too much to handle. Look at the rate of teen deaths related to bullying. It’s scary.”
Amber also makes it clear that she doesn’t have a drinking problem and that she did not go to rehab for such. “I went to rehab for depression and anger management, not drug or alcohol abuse,” says Amber. “I have been out twice since I left rehab and I’m 21. I take my medication the way I’m supposed to.” Amber revealed last year that she suffers from bipolar disorder.
As for not seeing her daughter Leah, Amber reveals she agreed to let Gary have custody in other “to keep CPS off our backs.” She adds that she tries to see her daughter as often as she’s allowed. “I see Leah whenever I can. I have stipulations as to when I can and can’t see her.”
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TELL US: SURPRISED AMBER’S STILL SUICIDAL? SHOULD SHE QUIT TEEN MOM? SHOULD MTV STEP IN?
When someone says they are suicidal, pay attention. I hope she’s getting some sort of help, somewhere. MTV , Life & Style and all the other meddling media outlets that make a dime off this troubled girl need to step up and provide some serious help.
If she was really concerned with getting back her mental health and daughter she would not be speaking to the media and would drop out of the show.
I don’t know what her contract is with them but surely after the Russell suicide over at Bravo they would not risk another loss over a contract if she asked to be released.
But, my gut tells me Amber is a liar and loves the spotlight so yeah, that would never happen.
I’m soooo tired of “bi-polar” being thrown around as much as “hippie” was in the 60′s. Seems Docs are all to eager to diagnose virtually everyone with bi-polar when in fact, many are not. It’s a money making machine….pharmaceutical companies, docs etc and some people are walking around in a drug enduced haze because of it. You didn’t hear of this shit many years ago. It’s just so ridiculous. If you want to feel better Amber, buck up. Be responsible for your choices. Take care of your child. Get a job. Act like an adult and not some child who can’t get her way. Quit pouting. Quit talking! Live your life like you should be doing — not on tv, not in magazines etc.
God I miss the good ol’ days. lol
I feel like Amber plays the victim alot of the times and love’s to place blame on everyone else in her life. she refused to accept Responbities for her own choices if amber feels helpless why she talking to the media about her problem Amber claims the media is to blame for her problem why go to E to complain about the media .and knowing fully well that this story will be pick up by other news program .
@2 I agree. I wish she would stop throwing that out in public also, especially for her daughters sake.
watch 2 months from now the headline will b TEEN MOM HAS COMMITED SUCIDE …sad.
@03 well written….
She needs to stop referring herself to as a teen. She’s 21 now. And if she can’t take the media and the crazy lifestyle she signed up for when she agreed to appear on MTV then she needs to GET OUT and find a calmer way of life.
I believe Amber and her family ( mom, dad and brother ) have some deep family issues that may just involve that deceased little sister. It could really be possible that Amber surpressed memories of what really happened to her sister until Leah was born. It is very possible so don’t take her problems lightly. Its just really strange to me that she had no support system besides garys mom until recently:-( i feel for Leah
I’m so suicidal that I’m going to still go out and get my nails and hair done and go fake tanning.
She’s not depressed. She’s desperate for attention. I wish she’d GO AWAY!
She is desperate for attention, suicidal and most likely a drug/alcohol addict. I have never heard of a rehab that keeps someone for TWO MONTHS because of depression & bi-polar. She was most likely abusing meds & alcohol to numb herself. A hospital would keep someone for depression & bi-polar, but not REHAB!!!
If she was really concerned about being a good mom and regaining a healthy lifestyle – she would quit the show & get back to living her life.
“…and FAT…I’m suicidal AND fat..”
This outfit is fashion suicide.
I wish my mom would’ve loved me enough to put me up for adoption instead of keeping me as an accessory…I wish my mom would’ve loved me enough to hold me when I cried instead of throwing me in my crib, stuffing a bottle in my mouth and walking out shutting the door behind her so she wouldn’t hear me crying for her…I wish my mom would’ve loved me enough to put sheets on my crib mattress. I wish my mom would’ve loved me enough to not scream obscenities at my dad while abusing him physically in my presence. I wish my mom would’ve loved me enough to want to visit me when I had to stay at my dads. I wish my mom would’ve made me a priority instead of her boyfriends, partying, tanning, nails and publicity. I wish my mom would change and become the mom that every child deserves to have. At least my dad is trying but I’ll never stop needing a mom…
I wonder if I am the only one who thought something was very strange about the reaction of Amber when there was a mention about the supposed crib death of her sister? This took place when she was 4 years old and the child was very, very young. She immediately began to panic, and insist they not talk about this, ultimately running off the stage. I found that to be very unusual and wonder what really happened……dreadful thought but something is not right there.