Yolanda Hadid‘s brain functioning was certainly at 100% while she was compiling a list of grudges against those who spurned her while she was battling Chronic Lyme Disease. Topping that list is, of course, ex-husband David Foster, who grew sick and tired of her sickness, and also some of Yo’s ex Real Housewives Of Beverly Hills co-stars!
Yolanda’s recently released memoir, Believe Me: My Battle with the Invisible Disability of Lyme Disease, leaves no gory detail untouched as she chronicles her Lyme journey and her life before, during, and after crippling chronic illness. Of all the side-effects, losing her marriage was the hardest. She describes her split from David as “heartbreaking,” but concedes, “so is life.”
“It became very difficult,” Yolanda reveals. Her decision to portray her journey on RHOBH became a major stressor. She explains, “The only reason I shared [that story] is because people need to understand that being a sick person is really hard, but being the caretaker of a chronically ill person is hard and people just get to their limit. Men want to fix things and if they can’t fix it, it’s really hard.”
Little things blew up into big things, and David took Yolanda’s half-functioning brain as literally. “We all say when we get pushed to the end, we all say things that are hurtful, but it’s not a big deal,” Yolanda told ET Online. “I hold that marriage and that relationship in very high regards” and if it weren’t for her divorce she “wouldn’t be living the life that is authentic and true to me.”
Yolanda hasn’t given up on finding another king either. “I am such a romantic. I’ve taken two years to really heal and to really learn to be on my own and be happy. I’m at that place now. I’m ready to fall in love.” And for once she’s not looking for super famous, or “in the industry,” but “a normal guy.” She adds, “just somebody loving, spiritual.”
Among some of the other revelations in Yolanda’s book are claims that in addition to her health, money became a major issue for her and David. “I understand he’s sensitive around finances. Of course, he doesn’t want to provide for my children. That’s Mohamed’s job and my job and exactly the reason why I am very driven to keep working.”
She felt “trapped” in the marriage, despite David being “the most quality human being in my life? I feel empty and lost all drive to try to fix all the issues that have broken our bond.” Ultimately he is the one who finally ended things on Nov 11 – their anniversary. They didn’t speak for a year, but have now come to a place of peace.
The final fight came when David accused Yolanda of using her illness for sympathy and said her ‘sick card’ was up. “After having a front-row seat to my journey, he’s actually saying that I used a SICK CARD? Who is he talking to? Who is influencing him? How did he come up with such an unkind statement? I don’t deserve this. If roles were reversed and David was sick, I would stick by him.”
Despite coming to see RHOBH as “toxic” Yolanda says filming was “a major wakeup call” to how sick she was. Yolanda cites an argument where she called a co-star “such an asshole.” as “the moment that shakes and wakes me up. Something is really wrong with me.” In retrospect she never never considered her co-stars “real friends,” and also admits the show was a “best-case” for someone needing a job with plenty of money, yet plenty of downtime. (She earned 6 figures).
Yolanda was worried about Gigi, Bella, and Anwar being on RHOBH. “I also struggle with the way the show exposes my children’s lives. Gigi’s and Bella’s careers have taken off with the speed of lightning and they’ve lost a lot of their freedom as a result. Our home should be a private, safe place to anchor and recharge their batteries.”
She wasn’t suicidal, but began to see death as a release. During a beach vacation, lying naked on the shore (Like a Natalie Imbruglia song) Yolanda begged, “God, please just take me in a way. Please carry my body away. I just want to disappear.”
Yolanda chose to go into filming RHOBH blind. “I am asked to watch the previous seasons of the Housewives to get up to date on the story line but I choose not to. I want to meet each woman in an authentic way and form my own impressions…Looking back, this is a mistake, because it takes me a long time to catch up in real life.”
Yolanda may be at peace with David and the drama from their divorce, but she still hasn’t forgiven her co-stars for an incident at Kyle Richards house!
Referencing a magazine photoshoot at Kyle’s, Yolanda is suffering from “earth-pulling exhaustion” and could barley get out of bed, yet she still showed up, reports E! News. While the other women were in hair and makeup, Yolanda went to lie down in the car to “conserve energy until they’re ready for me on set.”
Everyone ignored her except Brandi Glanville. “It’s strange to me, because if someone was sitting in my driveway and not feeling well, I would go out and say, ‘How are you? Why don’t you come into the house, take the guest room, and relax until we start?'” Yolanda writes. It was the start of a serious fracture between Yolanda and the other women who she realized were only Hollywood friends.
The Munchausen accusation still “infuriates” her. “Why would anyone make such a distorted and untrue statement related to my health journey? Especially in front of my friends and millions of viewers?” Yolanda seethes. “It’s simply unconscionable that my supposed ‘friends’ doubt and discredit my word on such a delicate and sensitive matter. But a thousand times worse and more hurtful is when they say that Anwar and Bella don’t have Lyme.”
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